A Sorta Fairytale

My Teenage Love Affair

just seen Alicia Key's video "teenage love affair" and i cant help those memories from surging, drifting me away and back to my wonderful college yesteryears.. well, it's not only the love affair that I'm mulling and wistful of, but the whole strangely protracting college experience I've had. and I'm really missing it, even it wasn't all that sugar, spice & everything nice.

GORGEOUS ROOM12.
wia. hazel. alma. apreal. ate nanie. ate sar. ate lily. janel. ow. ate lei. ate bing. haifa. ate mayvel. ada. ate rose. did i miss anyone? those were the gorgeous room 12 of Super New Girls Dormitory. i miss them all so much. the chicka's. saging and mani at comcen. movies at sm. eating lunch and dinner together. window pal. window pal wars. manits. morning walks to the forestry to gobble on that yummylicious good old pater. jogging with wia, to see our crushes at the oval mainly hehe.. trips to iligan. tambay at ate adel's. over the bakod for coming in way beyond dorm curfews. our fave pancit canton with sputnik salo-salo. sweety's Kama Sutra lessons hahaha. the patawags. the daily 5pm gorgeous12 rampa at comcen. badminton at the dorm lawn. being all giddy during fog season, hala fags! fags! being all curled up in bed during cold rainy season. the loud music, that pissed off the neighboring rooms. we were always the pasaway ones who refused to participate at the clan clean ups and do-days. really i miss all that you guys. but like i said,

THE DORM LIFE wasn't all that bright and shiny. but i would rather think of the downside part as the test, that kept us all together binded and stronger, as friends and as college students. the frequent brownouts, especially during exams, made us turn to the magic of candles, even making the usual dinner to something less ordinary. and every time the lights are down, the guys from the boys' dorm act a little bit stranger than the usual. the boys and girls holler at each other from sweet nothings to different cusses. and then there's the water crisis. i dont know how we'd survive it. waking hours earlier before your class schedule just to get in line to a mile-long pila to have a share of that miracle bath water. i swear, dormers would kill for a bucket of water if anyone would try to make singit. there were also times when water didnt come for a week that we had to walk all through the fisheries, mag pakapal ng mukha makiligo at humingi ng tubig.

and then there's the FAIRYTALE.
my sorta fairytale. my teenage love affair. once upon a time, i fell in love with a guy i thought only existed on the parallel universe. i never thought someone like him would actually fall in love with someone like me. him and i, we were a wrong fit right from the start. yet somehow like magic, suddenly he's perfect for me and im perfect for him. i remember how we used to look at each other. how he looks at me, like he cant take his eyes off me. and how i looked at him, like no one else existed around us. my friends would tease me how my eyes literally sparkled when he's around. im inlove with that guy. suddenly all the rules i set for my perfect boyfriend were all ruptured and shaken. after all, there's no such thing as rules of love, right? i remember how it brightened my day just the sight of him, waiting outside my class. or to hear him call out my name over the fence of the dorm. or hear his voice through the phone when he's away. or how he held my hand so tight. but i also remember how it crushed me, every single aching time, he failed to pick me up after class or fail to show up the whole day. or how he ignored me for a week just because we had a fight. for a long while we managed to sail smoothly, holding to whatever i possibly can. but somehow we drifted apart. i drowned, taking every piece of it all down with me. well i guess there goes my fairytale. after all that happened, i still love that fairytale, and i will keep it in my heart, no matter a new prince tumbles from his high steed and falls in love with me.

so there's my teenage love affair, inpired by Alicia Key's video. ohhh and what-do-ya-knaw, today marks the 63rd monthsary of my supposedly love affair with him. hmmm, that must be why im squibling and jabbering and getting a bit, oh ok, a lot slushy all too suddenly. hay na lang.. ok, gotta get on board now and scud my way back to the present..to reality.. hope the wind darts me to the right direction this time. so long!!!

bad day

everything seems to go against my way today. the weather sucks. the internet connection's slow and this century-old computer is a pain in the ass. and to top it all, RF online's lagging caused me a thousand deaths which means losing 4% experience. yeah not that big a deal. except that i worked an hour for that 4%. and i lost it just like that. oh well, maybe im just PMSing. i really hate this day.

I LOVE GG!!

ohhhh.. i cant wait for the GG's season2!!! i hear it hasn't even aired in the US.. that means it could take months before it'll finally show on ETC. T_T bummer!

things to watch out for in Gossip Girl:

• the upper-east side drama
• blair waldorf's 101 tips on BITCHology
• serena van der woodsen & dan humphrey romance
• lily van der woodsen & rufus humphrey romance
• blair waldorf & chuck bass romance
• HOW EASILY TO THROW AWAY AN EXPENSIVE CELLPHONE
• blair waldorf's headbands
• the cast's designer clothes, shoes & bags

                            view larger images HERE!!!!! 

Pirated Singers

you know what's so vexing about the pinoy music industry? its the play-it-safe recording companies who actually signed up singer wannabe's like Bea Alonzo, Toni Gonzaga, Judy Ann Santos, Gretchen Baretto, and their latest science project KC Conception.. as if their career's aren't  booming enough they have to enter the world of singing. and the worst part is, there are a lot of more  promising artists and bands out there, who practically even sold their souls to the devil just to share the lime light and be heard. Bea, do you really have to ruin my favorite song (missing you)? and Toni.. i so f*cking hate your voice! KC, i still think you're pretty but your song "imposible" is a bit too whiny, move on girl, Lino and Bianca are probably meant for each other. Juday, stick with the acting ok? and Gretchen, uhhhh, i don't even know what to say to you.

zahara on 24

i just turned 24 two days ago, but instead of whining about how im getting older but not wiser, or how i still haven't done any of the things i promised myself i would, im reserving all my negativities for today and brood on the little positive things that i could ever muster (that's how negative i am haha).

for starters, i have been better. if you knew me well enough, you'd know that i've been dying for months trying to get over an ex-boyfriend. you're lucky if you're not one of those people i pester about my pain and sufferings or hear about my "self-pity" speech. as in really. i was pretty messed up. i cried at things that reminded me of everything we used to be. i hummed at slow R&B songs (can you believe that?). and i kinda resorted to hating boys haha. but now im starting to think im going to be ok after all. although we still dont talk, and i have no intentions of contacting him, im glad im not mad anymore. at him and at myself. that's all that matters now.

although i didnt get any of those things i asked on my wishlist for my birthday, im planning on buying on my next jaunt to davao the Crocs Alice, the happy feet bakya and my cousin Farinah just called me up to say she just saw that havaianas slim with pink stripes on SM. that's gotta be good right?! that's the best thing about being unemployed, still getting to ask your parents to buy you stuff. haha.

oh another thing, my sister just got married. its a little sad. we'll surely miss her and wish them the bestest wishes..good thing about it though is that i have a bigger chance of getting in to that expensive nursing school that i really wanted to go to now that my sister is off my father's payroll haha. im keeping my fingers crossed on that.

ok. so now that im 24, could someone tell how to act like it? haha.. thanks for reading!!

THINGS I WANT FOR MY BIRTHDAY

PRINTED HAPPY FEET SANDALS

nothing could be more harder than choosing between havaianas urban flash and a happy feet regina. but then again i chose good ol havaianas. so im making this one as the top must-have's this year

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CROCS [alice]

i dont like most of the crocs' designs, the rounded one's with wholes in it.. i dont get why people go crazy over it.. do you? but i like this one...

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GLADIATOR SANDAL

[any brand.. this one is from OLD NAVY]..i saw Serena Van der Woodsen wearing something like this, heheh i loved it.

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A WEEKEND ON A WHITE SANDY BEACH

i know boracay is beyond repair these days. so i guess camiguin will do =p . never been there.

and wearing string bikini's too!! LOL

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APPLE PINK MACBOOK LAPTOP

im not so much into gadgets, i could careless my cellphone's outdated  & i dont even have an mp3 player, but since im an internet freak, i salivate on this cute pink laptop from apple.. ok din ang white!!

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IPOD VIDEO

having said i dont even have an mp3 player (that's absurd for a music geek like me), and so i would like to include this white ipod video to stack all my recently downloaded mp3's (that bhes secretly loves =p) and to listen to them at night pampatulog.. sabi ni bhes kasi nakakaantok daw mga trip ko.. hmmm makikita ko na lang background song nya sa friendster.

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HAVAIANAS SLIM w/ PINK STRIPES PRINT

i saw this on the net.. i love it.. but i couldn't find a pair like this..