SYMPTOM OF MY TIME

I’m just a symptom of my time,
just a victim of my mind
Turning deaf and dumb and blind
’cause I need to
I’m inescapably obsessed with the thoughts I have repressed
How I look when I’m undressed to receive you
Why do you think your love could ever change me?
Why?
you don’t know anything about me baby
Should I wax or should I shave,
be a master or a slave
Would a good girl misbehave like I plan to
Do I smile or do I pout,
turn the collar in or out
It’s the little things that count,
baby can’t you see that I
just can’t take it anymore
I need to find some
kind of light behind the door

Chorus:
And it gets me down,
yes it gets me down
Everybody’s got it right but me somehow
And it gets me down,
spins my head around

Life really should be easier by
now I read another magazine,
see the star I’ve never been
Hope is something in between all the pages
So I buy a promise in a jar,
I try to cover up the scars
There’s no shelter from the storm when it rages
I’ve tried so long and hard and nothing changes
God must be laughing as he turns away

*Chorus*

I just can’t take it anymore
I need to find some kind of light behind the door
I’m just a symptom of my time.

*A Scattered
Memory Entry Part II*

you know what used to make my semesters back in college despite being away from cable tv’s, good home food and safe drinking water?  a mixtape jam packed with my favorite alternative classics. and now seven years later, im now into a more ambient, contemporary girly girl music, it still is a treat idling with some my old faves every now and then..  here are some of my favorite alternative songs that i had stack in a mix tape seven years back (wait, is it really seven years already??). and the tape playlist from myflashfetish made it even more dramatic LOL! Enjoy backtracking!!! (PS: patience is a virtue. the player could take long to download depending on your  internet connection)

SONGS:

1. Another Perfect Day- American Hi-Fi           8. Tea and Sympathy- Jars Of Clay
2. Bad Day -Fuel                                                 9. Turn My Head- Live
3. Sick Of Myself                                               10.Sex and Candy- Marcy Playground
4. If I Could Talk I’d Tell You-Lemmonheads     11.I Miss You- Incubus
5. Take A Picture- Filter                                   12.Bite Your Tongue-Duncan Sheik
6. You Wanted More                                         13.Forgiveness- Collective Soul
7. Stranger By the Day- Shades Apart

my head is actually caterwauling right now. every time i
watch awe-inspiring movies about life and love,why is it that i always end up
feeling like my life is so pressingly dim. how did i really do for the last 23
years? have i been really living my life? did i really even try? *** i just
watched Elizabethtown on HBO. must have been the blue sky, or the trees, the music played during the
road trip or the wind blowing on Orlando Bloom’s face  when he rolled down the window of his car, but
it made me remember one of the scattered bits of my scanty unforgettable
moments of my life..

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Dancing in the Moonlight

It was our last night in Boracay, December 2003. We were there on a field
trip on one of my HRM subjects (Tourism1). I was with friends Jane, Toing, Abu, Mickey, Ren-Ren and if my memory serves
me right, Jumbo and mama Frau was with us too. Since Toing and I practically spent the whole
trip moping and groping about the usual “problems of the heart”, we decided to
skip sleep off and spend all night wandering away gadding the long stretch of the
beaches and just relish on the beauty it unfurls. So we passed by an open bar. It was already passed midnight. The tides are low, and the sky was glistening
with stars. The music coming from the bar was loud and we were dancing on the
beach like nobody was watching.. well nobody really is watching anyway. It was
perfect.

no picture at that moment but here is a shot of me (on an odd choice of clothing haha) and my friends…

and the complete Boracay Barkada

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This will be my first Scattered Memeories entry. Hopefully
id remember and be able to post some of my other unforgettable experiences in
my life, to at least remind me that I have been living my life, and yes, I can
be fun too..haha

this song is sooooooooo me! i guess it’s about being young and
innocent, about finding yourself in this fiendishly clattered world,
and on your path to self discovery you encounter mistakes and how its
ok to not know everything and that everything doesnt always makes
perfect sense..

album: Yael Naïm (2007)

I'm a new soul I came to this strange world hopingI could learn a bit about how to give and take.But since I came here felt the joy and the fearfinding myself making every possible mistake

La la la la la la la la...

See I'm a young soul in this very strange world hopingI could learn a bit about what is true and fake.But why all this hate try to communicatefinding just that love is not always easy to make.

La la la la la la la la...

This is a happy end, 'cause you don't understandEverything you have done, why's everything so wrong?This is a happy end, come and give me your handI'll take you far away.

I'm a new soul I came to this strange world hopingI could learn a bit about how to give and takebut since I came here felt the joy and the fearfinding myself making every possible mistake

(I'm a new soul) La la la la la la la la...(In this very strange world) La la la la la la la la...(Make every possible mistake) La la la la la la la la...

Tiffany Arbuckle (a.k.a. PLUMB) is one of my favorite female acts of
all time. Along with Stranded, Worlds Collide, Real and Boys Dont Cry,
this “The Perfect Man” OST have captivated me in more ways than one. “will i ever see what you could see in me? Or do i just believe that we will always be a dream?”..im such a sucker for fairytales hahah..someday im going to sing this song to the man who would give me this real life fairytale..

Real Life Fairy Tale

by Plumb

album: Chaotic Resolve (2006)

You ran around inside my head, when you passed out, I felt dead, and I realized you make me live, And when my world starts to cave in, You jump inside and take my hand... No matter where, you are there.... 

Will I ever see what you could see in me, Or do I just believe that we will always be a dream.

Well I will never be the same
and when they see that you and me were meant to be
they’ll just believe why we are together.

You are my light
You are my star,
You are my sunshine and my dark
You are the everything I dreamed about…
You are the guy who stole my heart
I am the girl you’re always fighting for
We have a love people
dream about….
A REAL LIFE FAIRYTALE

I thought that I would be alone, You caught my eye and I was home, And I realized that this is love. I see the world with different eyes, I look at you by my side, 

Dream with me.... Make me believe.... That this is a real life fairy tale. 

You are my light, You are my star, You are my sunshine and my dark, You are the everything I dreamed about… You are the guy who stole my heart I am the girl you're always fighting for We have a love people dream about…. 

A real life fairy tale A real life fairy tale A real life fairy tale

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