“locked inside the only place where you feel sheltered
where you feel safe YOU LOST YOURSELF
in your search to find something else to hide behind” ~Lifehouse

im lost.

i heard this from last night’s grey’s anatomy episode..

Dream

by Priscilla Ahn

I was a little girl, alone in my little world
Who dreamed of a little home for me
I played pretend between the trees
And fed my house guests bark and leaves
And laughed in my pretty bed of green

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing
I had a dream

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park
I asked God who I'm supposed to be
The stars smiled down at meGod answered in silent reverie
I said a prayer, and fell asleep

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree
I had a dream

Oooh, oooh, oooh, ooohOooh, oooh, oooh, oooh

Now I'm old and feeling grey
I don't know whats left to say
About this life I'm willing to leave
I lived a fool and I lived it well
As many tales I lived to tell

I'm ready now, I'm ready now, I'm ready now
To fly, from the highest wing

I had a dream

im not such a rooter for Pinoy Music, exept for Eraserheads maybe, but
i super adore Moonstar88’s latest single “migraine”. i loved the video.
i thought it was funny and well, sort of different from most typical
pinoy music videos i’ve seen so far. and i really love the lyrics!!
that’s my story they’re singing!! makes me wanna cry!! =(

MIGRAINE BY MOONSTAR88

Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako, nangangarap na mapa-sayo

Hindi sinasadya Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako? Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?

Nasusuka ako, kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod, kailangan bang lumuhod?

Gusto ko lang naman, yung totoo
Hindi po ang sagot, hindi rin isang tanong

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?

Dahil, di na makatulog (makatulog)
Dahil di na makakain (makakain)
Dahil di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil, di na

Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo

Hanggang dito na lang ako

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo… Nahihilo…
Nalilito…

you ever feel like crying every time you change your background music on your profile? NO?! then im just really weird.. coz i do! my background music plays a huge part on my friendster profile. they’re kinda like soundtrack on a movie that pumps up the scene and make it all exhilarating and spellbinding. haha. call me cornball/gooey/baduy all you want, but im one of those cheesy people who keeps track of songs that relate to certain events in my life. So here are my background music ever since i signed up for friendster:

Look What You’ve Done (JETS), Take A Picture (FILTER), If I Could Talk I’d Tell You (LEMONHEADS), Blind (LIFEHOUSE), Brighter Than Sunshine (AQUALUNG), Collide (HOWIE DAY), Across The Universe (FIONA APPLE), Chasing Cars (SNOW PATROL), Green Apple (CHANTAL KREVIAZUK), A Sorta Fairytale (TORI AMOS), Sleeps with Butterflies (TORI AMOS),  Tear in Your Hand (TORI AMOS), Strange and Beautiful (AQUALUNG), High (JEM), Where Does the Good Go (TEGAN AND SARAH), Perfect (MARIN ORD), Hear You Me (JIMMY EAT WORLD), Time Wont Let Me Go (THE BRAVERY), Better (REGINA SPEKTOR), Star Mile (JOSHUA RADIN), Teardrops on My Guitar (TAYLOR SWIFT), One and Only (TEITUR), It Means Nothing (STEREOPHONICS), 32 Flavors (ANI DIFRANCO)

SYMPTOM OF MY TIME

I’m just a symptom of my time,
just a victim of my mind
Turning deaf and dumb and blind
’cause I need to
I’m inescapably obsessed with the thoughts I have repressed
How I look when I’m undressed to receive you
Why do you think your love could ever change me?
Why?
you don’t know anything about me baby
Should I wax or should I shave,
be a master or a slave
Would a good girl misbehave like I plan to
Do I smile or do I pout,
turn the collar in or out
It’s the little things that count,
baby can’t you see that I
just can’t take it anymore
I need to find some
kind of light behind the door

Chorus:
And it gets me down,
yes it gets me down
Everybody’s got it right but me somehow
And it gets me down,
spins my head around

Life really should be easier by
now I read another magazine,
see the star I’ve never been
Hope is something in between all the pages
So I buy a promise in a jar,
I try to cover up the scars
There’s no shelter from the storm when it rages
I’ve tried so long and hard and nothing changes
God must be laughing as he turns away

*Chorus*

I just can’t take it anymore
I need to find some kind of light behind the door
I’m just a symptom of my time.

*A Scattered
Memory Entry Part II*

you know what used to make my semesters back in college despite being away from cable tv’s, good home food and safe drinking water?  a mixtape jam packed with my favorite alternative classics. and now seven years later, im now into a more ambient, contemporary girly girl music, it still is a treat idling with some my old faves every now and then..  here are some of my favorite alternative songs that i had stack in a mix tape seven years back (wait, is it really seven years already??). and the tape playlist from myflashfetish made it even more dramatic LOL! Enjoy backtracking!!! (PS: patience is a virtue. the player could take long to download depending on your  internet connection)

SONGS:

1. Another Perfect Day- American Hi-Fi           8. Tea and Sympathy- Jars Of Clay
2. Bad Day -Fuel                                                 9. Turn My Head- Live
3. Sick Of Myself                                               10.Sex and Candy- Marcy Playground
4. If I Could Talk I’d Tell You-Lemmonheads     11.I Miss You- Incubus
5. Take A Picture- Filter                                   12.Bite Your Tongue-Duncan Sheik
6. You Wanted More                                         13.Forgiveness- Collective Soul
7. Stranger By the Day- Shades Apart

this song is sooooooooo me! i guess it’s about being young and
innocent, about finding yourself in this fiendishly clattered world,
and on your path to self discovery you encounter mistakes and how its
ok to not know everything and that everything doesnt always makes
perfect sense..

album: Yael Naïm (2007)

I'm a new soul I came to this strange world hopingI could learn a bit about how to give and take.But since I came here felt the joy and the fearfinding myself making every possible mistake

La la la la la la la la...

See I'm a young soul in this very strange world hopingI could learn a bit about what is true and fake.But why all this hate try to communicatefinding just that love is not always easy to make.

La la la la la la la la...

This is a happy end, 'cause you don't understandEverything you have done, why's everything so wrong?This is a happy end, come and give me your handI'll take you far away.

I'm a new soul I came to this strange world hopingI could learn a bit about how to give and takebut since I came here felt the joy and the fearfinding myself making every possible mistake

(I'm a new soul) La la la la la la la la...(In this very strange world) La la la la la la la la...(Make every possible mistake) La la la la la la la la...

Tiffany Arbuckle (a.k.a. PLUMB) is one of my favorite female acts of
all time. Along with Stranded, Worlds Collide, Real and Boys Dont Cry,
this “The Perfect Man” OST have captivated me in more ways than one. “will i ever see what you could see in me? Or do i just believe that we will always be a dream?”..im such a sucker for fairytales hahah..someday im going to sing this song to the man who would give me this real life fairytale..

Real Life Fairy Tale

by Plumb

album: Chaotic Resolve (2006)

You ran around inside my head, when you passed out, I felt dead, and I realized you make me live, And when my world starts to cave in, You jump inside and take my hand... No matter where, you are there.... 

Will I ever see what you could see in me, Or do I just believe that we will always be a dream.

Well I will never be the same
and when they see that you and me were meant to be
they’ll just believe why we are together.

You are my light
You are my star,
You are my sunshine and my dark
You are the everything I dreamed about…
You are the guy who stole my heart
I am the girl you’re always fighting for
We have a love people
dream about….
A REAL LIFE FAIRYTALE

I thought that I would be alone, You caught my eye and I was home, And I realized that this is love. I see the world with different eyes, I look at you by my side, 

Dream with me.... Make me believe.... That this is a real life fairy tale. 

You are my light, You are my star, You are my sunshine and my dark, You are the everything I dreamed about… You are the guy who stole my heart I am the girl you're always fighting for We have a love people dream about…. 

A real life fairy tale A real life fairy tale A real life fairy tale

dont call me. dont write. dont show up in the middle of the night. You know that we needed some time and space to breathe in. i still recall the words you say to me. its what you did not say that sets me free. now how can i find peace of mind when you keep coming back again. its not okay for you to play this game of seesaw with my head. now it hurts too much. and it hits too hard. and i won’t play this part. so now i say things i want to say. sometimes its better letting go this way. i’ll always know down in my soul we really had so far to go. i’d given all i have to give and now its time for me to live. and i wont look back and i won’t regret.though it hurts like hell. someday i will forget. dont call me. dont write. dont show up in the middle of the night to say that you’ve been thinking cause i know its just the drink in you. its funny how we seem to end up here. i never thought i’d see this all disappear. this is letting go.

-

~ now now. im not poetic like that. just try to listen to this song called Letting Go by Sozzi.

Found a new one, and I’m hooked.. This time its from the movie
Aquamarine. I love the song and the lyrics (so what’s new?)! And the
movie, well its not exactly a mature movie but it tickles the romantic
bone in me and it sort of reminded me that no matter how painful love
gets, it is the best feeling in the whole universe!! Please listen to
the song and I also had the lyrics laid out for you guys.. I especially
love the chorus part. Its very simple, but its very romantic!! Someday,
someone (that I like) would ask me that question.

One & Only

by Teitur

album: Poetry & Aeroplanes (2003)

I've been wishing on a star but I could never have imaginedAnd I will land just where you are after all this lonesome travellingI took one look in your eye, and reached out to hold your handThis is when I realized what I could never understand

Do you want to be my one and only love?Do you want to be my one and only love?

So you wanna be my friend, so you wanna be my loverOh with you I do confess I can't be one without the otherThat was hard for me to say, I hope I said it rightWhich ever, come what may, you see I need to know tonight

Do you want to be my one and only love?Do you want to be my one and only love?

Do you want to play these cards, do you want to lay them down?Do you want to run away or do you want to stick around?

Do you want to be my one and only love?Do you want to be my one and only love?